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[Aug. 5th, 2011|08:02 am] |
This month has been good. Every single Army goal i set out for myself i have achieved. IPPT silver, topping my course, finally getting my Kaki Beret before national day, It's quite amazing what God will give you even when you don't deserve it. Driving test coming soon. Getting that as well would really make my month.
There is a time for everything and while that was a time for me to achieve personal success, its now time to move on and start giving more back to people again. Here i am Lord, Your servant is listening. Help me to love my boys in the way You want me to, to speak into their lives fresh words from You, to plan a good future plan as a cell supervisor, and do an epic Youth camp. But i dont wanna do any of these things if You are not with me. Help me above it all the wait in your presence. In Jesus Name.
On a side note, yesterday i was looking through ,my facebook notes. I only did 6. All of which were done exactly 2 years ago. Reading through all of them, i realize 2 years on, my answers to those questions, have not changed at all. So much else has changed, friends, vocation, priorities, the people i'm close to / accountable to, my circle of influence, responsibilities, yet my character and valies have stayed almost exactly the same. On the one hand it shows i haven't slipped. On the other hand, maybe it also shows i haven't grown? Hmm. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2011|06:22 pm] |
I like running. I notice when I run, I start at a good pace, but its not long before I start to tire out and slow down. but when I force myself to push past that feeling and keep moving forward, in time I find myself running faster, and faster, and faster. and you know what? I realise, I run the race of life exactly the same way. starting out, I keep pushing myself to stop myself from slowing down in advancing the kingdom of God, and sooner or later, I find myself moving faster and faster. doing more and more. I'm always busy says a friend of mine. is it? maybe that's why I stop getting asked to go out anymore. but its alright. my days are spent building Gods kingdom in His courts. how can I compare them with anywhere else?
but dear Lord, in all of this, may I never lose that hunger for your word. in Jesus name I pray.
amen
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[May. 30th, 2011|05:38 pm] |
i must be more gentle with my boys
i must not give in too much to my girls.
Where in this can i find balance to be the best i can be for others, for God? |
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[May. 13th, 2011|11:30 pm] |
I honestly can no longer be bothered about conceptions and ideations of my being and what people think makes up my being. I am who i am and desire to learn and grow to be perfected for Christ. Not because people say i should change this and that of myself to 'fit in', rather, to change what i need to better serve my Master. I have a mission in life. Scratch that. God has a mission for my life. The best part is, i already know what that is. So i will strive for it and work towards that goal.
Bottomline is, the world can throw at me all they want of how the world and society(s) expect me to act, but i will boast only in the gifts and characteristics God has given me. And feel sorry not for expressing them.
Does seeking You more eman sacrificing time of others? Then so be it. Just grant only that you still use me as your minister to anyone in need.
So help me God. |
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[May. 8th, 2011|06:25 pm] |
I had big dreams. I wanted to cultivate in our youths the desire to meditate in worship, to connect with God, to go into His presence. With all the recent happenings, with me getting so busy, i seemed to have forgotten that. But 3 beautiful women reminded me of why i stand on that stage.
One fine young lady showed me one sunday that leading worship is about infecting the people with our own energy, and the day i loose my excitement is the day i lose my use. Watching her lead the little children, really warmed my heart, and affirmed me to strive even more to do much better.
Then my friend introduces me to a fine pair of twins who sing God's songs over the internet, and boy do they sing well. But it is especially touching cos they sing from their hearts, a new song to the Lord.
internalising all this, in leading worship yesterday, i was immensely humbled, as i realised, its not my voice, not anything i can do, but really total dependance on God, to spur in us the desire to worship Him. and you know what? im more excited than ever to lead next. children, youth, leaders, anything. My desire, is to bring the people of God into a deeper level of intimacy with Him.
So help me God. |
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[May. 5th, 2011|07:57 am] |
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in Amy tan's joy luck club, eagerly jong describes the support of her mother unto her as giving her supreme confidence. I have God watching over me. I have given confidence. |
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[May. 5th, 2011|07:23 am] |
choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve ... as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.
i stumbled upon my brother's weeblog a while sago, and i.never fsil to learn from him. in one of his posts, he notes that tozer, Luther, Calvin all were pretty lonely people. not so much because they didn't like company (afterall we are made to be communal beings) but because they desired fellowship with God more hungrily than fellowship with man!
I want that for myself.
Lord grant that I may the best of friends to whoever may be in need, yet at the same time, seek You beyond all other!
in Jesus name. |
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[May. 2nd, 2011|04:46 am] |
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very recently, a friend of mine assumed to think he could guess the plans of my life through inferring what I said,in conversation.. I probably even know what he was thinking. admittedly, in my mind, I was thinking 'foolish man! you have no idea how far off your assumptions are! my plans can't be inferred from that easily!' then it hit me. that is the exact same thing God thinks about the plans I have made in my life. . pertaining to one matter in my life, I seem to be hitting road blocks. people have expectations of me, and I have my own little plans, but it really is Gods will I want to fulfill, not my own, and it probably way supersedes my own plans. so I will hold back on my own views, eliminate self agenda and wait for Gods time to reveal His good and perfect will. easy to say, so much harder to do. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2011|02:18 pm] |
i need to do many things.
Honestly, my previous post on my experience in Brunei does not do it justice, but somehow, i feel the most of it should be kept personal. But one thing i must do! Look into the Arab nations!
List of unreached ethnic groups in the arab world:
Arab, Iraqi
Arab, Saudi - Hijazi
Arab, Saudi - Najdi
: Arab, Syrian
Arab, Tunisian
Arain, Muslim
Azerbaijani, Azeri Turk
Jat, Muslim
Pashtun, Northern
Pashtun, Southern
Persian
Rajput, Muslim
Shaikh
Afghani, Tajik
These are the ethnic groups scattered around the arab nations that have a total christian population of 0% to 0.03 %. All of these ethnic groups are in the top 15 persecution listings of christians of the world. Lord, if it is your will. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2011|09:30 pm] |
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lion king the musical. sitting at it now, its amazing. the costumes, songs, local humor to excite the crowd, it reminds me of a lot of lessons my mom taught me when I was young. but that's what I love about Disney. for the kids, but so much for the adults to catch and admire too. |
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